Discovered Yarvin, Now I'm Terrified

This is a new account because I don't want these feelings connected with anything else.

I recently listened to the episodes on Yarvin and Thiel. I am terrified right now.

After election night last year, I was nervous about what's now the new administration and that anxiety grew more and more as Jan. 20 came closer. Project 2025 in and of itself scared me, I'd wander a bookstore and get this uneasy feeling that it wouldn't be there in a year. I'd drive in my downtown and worry that the landscape would be completely different by the summer.

Then Jan. 20 and the inauguration hit like a freight train. Then I kept seeing the Dark Gothic MAGA video appearing everywhere. I watched it, then I looked up Curtis Yarvin, found and listened to the BtB episodes on him. Then Thiel. Seeing the steps to Yarvin's Butterfly Revolution play out in real time is breaking me. I don't want to have to choose what hell of a network state to slave away in. I don't want to be ground into biofuel. I've watched, read, and listened to so much over the last week that I Palantir has probably put me on a list.

I keep switching between subreddits trying to gauge responses to what's going on. Some say we're in the middle of stage 2 and are starting stage 3, especially with Musk already calling for courts to be abolished. Some say we've got weeks left, some say we've got days. To me it looks like every stage is almost complete. I find little nuggets of cautious optimism that only get ground into paste by comments tearing them apart.

I can't do the things I want to do, I can't enjoy the things I want to enjoy. I feel like if I step away, somethings going to happen that I need to know about but didn't.

There is no joy. I am petrified and terrified.