I'm seriously losing my fucking mind 😭

I guess I just want advice on how to stay sane and not let this ruin my day or good attitude 😔

I'm tired of trying to put my almost 1 year old baby down for fucking naps. I gotta deal with him fighting his naps twice a day and I'm seriously losing my mind and patience. No matter what I do, it's so hard to get him down and sometimes I literally can't get him down AT ALL. ESPECIALLY the second nap. This has been going on for 2 MONTHS!

Even if I set him down and take a break, I can't seem to gain any more patience or a clear head. The minute he starts fighting his nap again I just want to give up. I know he can start feeling my vibes when I get impatient but I feel like I can't help it.

I've tried putting him down in his crib on his own like I do at night, but he'll just play in there for a whole hour. So I mostly have to sing an pat his butt, because the odds of me getting him to nap are higher if I do it like this. But he fights it, wiggles around, or stays awake completely. He's 27lbs so my arms get so freaking tired. I KNOW he's tired. Tiredness is written all over him.

Then, if he doesn't nap, he gets over tired at night, wakes frequently, and I have to assist him to sleep which also takes forever.

When he gets both naps in he will go to bed at night on his own and sleep through the night.

He's such a great baby but I can't stand this napping bullshit. And NOBODY around me understands once so ever. Not my mom and dad who's had 4 kids, my sister, or my S/O. They make me feel like I'm stressing out over absolutely nothing and that I'm being overdramatic.

And just to add: though I'm angry and losing my mind I'd NEVER take it out on him. I just set him down, and do a quick task around the house. Or I go cry. 🥲 Its just me and him at home during the day.

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