I hate that there’s no cure for bp

I’m just supposed to live like this for the rest of my life.. If I never was diagnosed would I have ever been so aware of things I do and emotions I feel?? I thought I was an okay person before with my issues but didn’t freak out about the symptoms. Now I have to just take meds all my life and deal with the downfalls of my emotions and actions. Not sure there’s any positive to it :/