Life off medication

I went off my meds accidentally and when I realized it was too late, I had already been living without it. I want to go in them again but at the moment I am actually feeling good. When I was on meds and would drink I would be so aggressive and be irrationally angry but I do not feel that way anymore. Can’t tell what I need or want now. Took meds for a year and was an optimal achieving person but slowly I still made it through the end of the semester. I don’t know:

To clarify, I don’t have a drinking problem. I used to smoke weed and couldn’t on my medication. Now smoking is great and I really have been getting by and not had any suicidal thoughts. Just been eating a lot and it’s been negatively impacting my self esteem.