I want to ask you guys, wtf?

Like what the actual f? What is going on ? My life seems so weird, nothing makes sense! Everything keeps getting worse! Love isn’t working for me!
I am 29 i feel so confused with my life that i wish tomorrow would not come! Every hope whenever something new and looking good might happen to me turns out to be another shock! One time after another( mainly in meeting men) every guy that i meet, ends up being worse than the last one! Wtf? 😳 am I cursed? The thing is i never hurt anyone, in the past i never broke someone’s heart so I would doubt it’s a karma! Like so many bad things happened to me in my twenties ( mainly in dating) , my ex who lied to me and cheated on me and got engaged to someone while dating me is still with her and i am still suffering from dating? Like i was the good person and he wasn’t and now none of us got what we deserved! His life is stable while he was a very bad person meanwhile my life is a total mess!!!

P.S. because of the lifestyle i live i only meet men online, i never meet men in real life. (But I definitely meet them face to face after meeting online)