My personality is why I’m cheated on.

It’s been some time since I’ve been in a relationship. 1 year now. Thats besides the point, most of my recent interactions with people when “dating” is the topic of the conversations are...

“Oh I got cheated on a few times, I can’t really commit to anyone.”

That phrase alone has become part of my personality. Every time a try to pick someone up at a bar or restaurant, that phrase is often spoken.

My first major relationship I got cheated on 7 times… My partner at the time was doing this long before I meet her, and I had her previous partners warn me. Not to mention, imo cheating on someone and breaking up with them, only to sleep with someone else straight afterwards IS CHEATING so the real number is lost to the void. I know the 7 of these dudes irl. So 7 is the number I tell everyhone. It’s probably way more.

During the time I was quite oblivious to the cheating. But the signals rang true when I was out of the relationship. I’m told my personality is very timid and anxious… something I’m willing to admit but I have no lack of confidence and often find it easy enough to communicate with women, telling them about my sexuality and preferences is hard tho.

Not a lot of women want an insecure twink, they prefer the arrogant twinks.

My trust issues are obvious enough so explaining this to a partner or lover is very complicated and I try so hard not to sound like a cuck.

I feel like a CUCK when I have no desire to make the first move.

But to put it simply I have commitment issues that make me look like a cuck. All I want is a trad cottage core wife. I find it impossible to date/trust anyone. Don’t feel like being a Chad man slut either. I just want to feel approachable.

Also. The apps don’t work and I’ve had other partners cheat in me since. Mostly due to me letting it slide. Reinstalling the cuck in me.