Alhamdulillah I'm breaking free from Islam lol

My father is an imam, needless to say that the brainwashing has been very well done here. I still have tocs, like saying hamdulillah, feeling uneasy when having intercourse to the point where sometimes I just can't.. etc. I can't count them really. I still have to eventually figure out a lot of them. And figure out who I am.

But slowly and surely my mind is starting to open but it's sad that maybe I'll never have somebody to call family after today. I'm a human so it breaks my heart honestly. The love I had for them has always been fake. It came from the thought :" it's weird to not love family" but now I understand why I don't do so and now I'm free from that. Love has its routes, and they never took these routes to get to me. Respect is one of these main routes for me, and I just can't respect delulu mfs that don't wanna change and that don't respect me. Even when I'm having mental breakdowns Infront of them, they won't change. They think it's a trial from God and that the devil is subduing them to become kufar lol. Or that devil took control over me or some other shit. That's not love. They prefered "god" over me.

Anyways, I just felt like sharing this since I can't tell anybody. So yeah, thank you for existing exmuslims. 👍