what do you do to keep yourself hidden

I'm agnostic And my family isn't forceful or anything they say that till I'm a certain age which I'm guessing is when im providing for myself, having a job and all they said they'll give up as what they've done is done and its up to me on what I do with my life but as for now as I've already made up my mind and have to stay silent instead of saying my mind makes me feel so 🫥 for the fact I have to hide that im what the point of this subreddit is

I feel so bad sometimes too when i see them genuinely showing me that they want the best for me and ask me to pray and watch and read islamic stuff on social media I use (which is honestly the main place where i started questioning everything started) but that's not my belief

My mom says things like you should start putting Islam into your lifestyle, why don't I pray often, I'm blessed with everything but I need to "thank God for it". I don't get good answers to questions either and I'm not asking after I recently asked a question for the first time and got scolded so badly i did my listening to sad playlist on Spotify with bad religion by Frank ocean till I sleep after a long time im not gonna ask anymore unless its something that really really makes me curious

Honestly I don't care about religion that's all from me People can believe what they believe But the problem is the religion im born with is one filled with judgement from other people which i obviously can't ignore and I think its stupid for people to say "ignore it and continue your faith!!" because man if you disagree with something that is clearly just cultural and doesn't make sense in a religion with a God that's ALL LOVING you get death threats. It's not even a situation where this is a topic that's online and doesn't happen in real life even though my family isn't that religious they're still labelled Muslim and pray

They're very open minded though and tell me to respect people They've always said not to treat atheists, lgbtq, people of other religions etc differently and that they're no different and to treat them with respect But the problem is Would they be willing to be open to me?