I told my Mum and it...went well?!
I did it. I told her. I told her that I don't believe in Allah. I'm not sure how to feel happy yet sad, relaxed yet stressed.
Now, I didn't go straight up to her and tell her. For context, she caught me faking namaz, and I told her I didn't want to pray and she asked me why I didn't want to. And so I told her.
She was shocked and angry and she slapped my arm. Then she calmed down. We talked, she asked me questions, I asked her some. Here's some parts of the conversation:
Mum: "Why don't you believe in Allah?"
Me:"I don't believe in Allah, because he an all-knowing being, created Satan. He created the evil in this world. He is the one who created everything."
Mum: "Allah didn't create evil. Satan did. He was an angel who had a bit of a mind. He refused to bow down to Adam. He was arrogant just like you"
Me: "So, what about natural disasters? You said that they are from Allah."
Mum: "They are to remind people of Allah's power."
Me: "What about the innocent people?"
Mum: "Allah will grant them a place in heaven."
Mum: "Don't you want to be part of this family?"
Me: "Of course, I do..." *No, I want to leave this toxic place.*
Mum: "Then as long as you live here you will worship Allah. And don't even think about trying to move out when you're an adult...we've had this conversation before."
I lied to her saying I'd turn to prayer again. I didn't want to believe in a religion clearly ran by a pedophile and the followers lying about it. In all honesty, I think it really went well. I'm out to one of the teacher's at school, I'll be talking to them about it tomorrow because that's when he have are one on one. I'm also planning to find an old suitcase and maybe pack up in case I need to leave Any other advice would be appreciated? I live in Norway.