He consumes my thoughts every day, at least once an hour, for the past year and a half

How the f**k do I stop this lmao. It’s incredibly hard for me to fall in love with someone and he’s the first guy I ever fell in love with and I’m 33 now 😅 I date a lot, I’ve tried other guys of course but I just have never felt “it”. He didn’t even check all the boxes I look for yet I didn’t give a shit. The mental obsession I have is unhealthy at this point. I’m not a desperate bitch so I’d never reach out but jesussssss, I understand how people go crazy now 😂.

A part of it stems cause I know he liked me too, obviously not more than his ex cause we only dated for a fraction of time compared how long they were together so we never got to form those deeper bonds(My delusion believing if I had more time we woulda worked out) If I knew he didn’t like me or if he was a douche this would be so much easier. I don’t rly think about him when I’m out with friends or out doing something on a regular day unless something sparks a memory or if a sad song comes on. Oh yeah, love songs make soooooo much sense now, a flip switched a year and a half ago and all my favorite songs just feel so different now. Therapist isnt working, she just says the more I talk about it the easier it’ll get. I’ve posted here before but hoping someone out there who hasn’t seen it yet can give some sage wisdom. How do I make it stoppppppppp