Just wanted to remind everyone (myself mostly) that the baby calls the shots

This is more of a desperate plea for everyone to give me words of encouragement and a fat reality check that the baby is in charge here. I am 38 weeks and have been cramping belly tightening feelings for the last week. And I’m loosing parts of my mucus plug all week. This is my 3rd baby, i didn’t feel these sensations until i was in labor with my other 2. I asked my midwife to check me on Thursday just because i was curious and i was 80% effaced and 1cm. Which i know doesn’t really mean anything, but it was nice to know all of those uncomfortable feelings were doing something! I did the mile circuit last night just to help baby engage more.

Anyways, i know im still early. I know that dilation doesn’t mean anything until im actually in labor. I know allllllll of this. I’m just having a harder time keeping my patience with all of these feelings happening. They wake me up all night. My older kids are refusing to sleep in their bed and I’m constantly moving my oldest off of me so i can comfortably sleep.

I’m struggling, i want to be done. I want to cry. I want to sleep.