Need advice

Hello all. Just need an understanding shoulder to lean on. 23f was diagnosed in 2021 after taking the MSLT and the Polysomnography. Been struggling since 14 or so. I know I could be doing more to maintain my sleep health, but all it feels so unmanageable. I get into a good rhythm for a while (6months-1yr at most), and then it inevitably comes crashing down. I’ve tried vyvanse, adderall, xywav, modafinil and armodafinil. They all had the stimulating effect I need to get through the day. However, I keep trying to perform like everyone else and end up burning myself out. This usually results in 14+ hours of sleep. It’s hard to accept my seemingly meager limits. Acceptance and understanding from family feels entirely unattainable. How am I ever supposed to survive like this? How do you all do it? I’ve only maintained a job for a year at most, and only because they were understanding and allowed me to nap at work. Any tips/hacks/similarities/support is welcome. Thank you for reading aka coming to my pity party💜