First couples therapy appointment felt like conversion therapy. Feeling so guilty and confused

My (34F) husband (40M) and I just had couples therapy and I’m crying and really upset. I feel like everyone is trying to get me to convince myself to have sex with or be physical with my husband when I don’t want to. The therapist was talking about my husband and I working together to let me explore my feelings towards women, but she also talked about me trying to be physical with my husband. Then she talked about how sexuality and gender are all on a continuum, and how sexuality is in the brain and it’s really about the person. This makes me feel like this is all my fault because I can’t think myself into being sexually attracted to my husband and that if I’m gay it’s not real and I should just forced myself to have sex with him. It just feels like conversion therapy. It feels like she’s saying being gay isn’t real. And afterwards my husband was trying to comfort me about it and said that the therapist was just saying that since I’ve had sex with him and with men that means I must have some level of attraction to men. And that’s so hard because sex and being physical with men always felt so disturbing and left me empty and it feels like none of that is being considered. And I hate this so much. I want to just shut down these feelings and just do what everyone is saying and think myself into being attracted to men for the sake of my husband and our family. It feels like everyone is just insinuating that I’m not trying hard enough :(

Edit/Update: You all are so wonderful, I love this community so much, thank you for all of your supportive comments! <3 We fired that couples therapist, and we're each just going to do individual therapy while we work through this. We've agreed to NOT try to be physically intimate with each other while I figure myself out, so having that pressure off helps. I'm pretty sure I know where this is going, but I'm glad we both have therapists to help us each through it. Good luck to all of you going through something similar! <3