Too many circumstances?

I’m reaching a place of waivering and questioning the law. I’ve manifested “big” things like: contact from an SP after 4 months of NC, a full tuition scholarship, apartment, job, raffle prizes, a best friend. But there is a manifestation I’ve been working on: commitment and success with my SP (previously mentioned). SP and I have a 3 years history. Let’s be honest I manifested my fears w my SP: not being chosen(fear of commitment), and being left bc of insurmountable religious differences. Which is where we are now. No contact bc of arguments about the next step, and said differences. However SP is coming in a few days for a trip that was scheduled before any of this happened.

I’ve been using robotic affirmation (which worked for the NC) scripting and SC work. But I’m feeling like it’s impossible to get SP to change religious beliefs or at least be flexible and compromising because they have been adamant in the 3D about not waivering. And at this point feel the trip is only to break up with me in person/ offer closure. Overall I feel blocked and as tho there’s too many circumstances to overcome. I’m still robotically affirming but I feel no hope, and yes I know feeling is the secret but my mind feels this is insurmountable. And yes I know what you believe is what it is. My logical mind is struggling to see anyway thru. In previous manifestations w SP I still felt an energetic connection, I feel none now because of how much they have changed in the last 2 months, they’re not the person I met 3 years ago who saw marriage and commitment with me. The 3D is showing me the exact opposite of where I thought I’d be. Me and my loved ones thought I would be on track to get engaged this year. But the opposite has unfolded.