Almost 4 months in

I’m 10 days away for my 4 month mark on escitalopram (lexapro). I just wanted to write some encouraging words to the people in this sub that are still on the adaptation process. 

It has been SO worth it. 

I was one of the slow ones, two months in and I was still on the rollercoaster. Today I’m proud I’d stuck around! I feel much better. Life does not weight like a big rock over my shoulders. And the most important thing for me: I can put things into perspective, I barely not spiral anymore.

I’m also able to really cry, really laugh, feel love, and enjoy sex again. And it was not like this at all for the first couple of months!

I’m writing this in a low moment — I’ve been low for a few days now, just life happened. Or maybe it’s one of the last dips of this med, who knows. But even now I feel like I can rest, move, get out of the house, clean and eat well. It’s amazing.

Some things I’ve learned:

• I’m not missing doses and trying to take the medication at the same time every day. I’ve had some weird mood changes over missing a dose and also when taking the meds out of my schedule.
• I’m avoiding alcohol and weed. A few beers seem fine, but not every weekend. Weed is a big no for me (it triggers my invasive thoughts, the ones escitalopram is so wonderfully helping me put away, so bye thc)
• Maca root, vitamin b12 and daily sun exposure have been helpful.
• On the first weeks I asked people to be patient with me and my mood changes. Everyone was so nice about it. Now I’m able to be a good friend/partner/family member, and I enjoy the company of others. It was good to tell them I was on meds bc that way they could understand why I was acting so “disconnected”.

I just wanted to wish good luck everyone with their journey! You got this!