“Kung hindi mo maisasaulo, kahit wag ka na lang mag-exam.”

Hi. I'm one of those who failed the October 2024 PLE. Konti na lang sana, pasado na, pero hindi pa ipinagkaloob eh. The reason for this post is to let go of the pain and to fight again for this dream. My fighting spirit was up and down lately, pero I still show up everyday. Nung medyo fresh pa yung pagkabagsak, one of my family said, "Kung hindi mo maisasaulo, wag ka na lang magexam." Ang sakit, even now na naaalala ko, it hurts me still. But that didn't stop me to do what I need to do. The doubts and fears are lingering again pero compared nung ako ay nagrereview for October PLE, mas panatag ako ngayon. I've been projecting the "okay lang ako" self because I don't want my parents to be bothered. Hindi kase sila sanay na ako ay weak inside. They saw me cry when the results came out but that was the last time na nakita nila akong umiyak. I really really hope na I will pass the next time I try. Gusto ko ng tumulong sa community, gusto ko ng tumulong sa family, gusto ko na ulit makakita ng mga pasyenteng nakasmile, gusto ko na ulit maglingkod kahit alam kong mahirap. I can't think of any other profession na pupuntahan ko kundi pagdodoctor lang. So, this is me letting go of all the pain. This is me surrendering everything to God. This is me standing still and waiting for God's movement. Kung loloobin ng Diyos, ibibigay niya. Babalikan ko ito, and the moment I'll come back, lisensyadong doctor na ako 💖🩺