I got raped.

I (M14) got raped by (F17)

Tw drug abuse and rape

Unfortunately I was raped by a friend and I think it was partly my fault. So to start, I've known this friend for a year and I trust her 100% until she did this. We were both at a house party where we were taking drugs. Unfortunately, I also took something and had to face the consequences of it. When I took it (I won't say which drug) I felt bad, I felt like I was dying, I noticed that something was about to happen (collapse) and that's why I tried with all my might to tell my girlfriend to come with me. Simply that she is there. When we were at the toilet, the last thing that occurred to me was how she locked the door and I fell asleep on the floor. idk what happened. I woke up with her on top of me. In her couch at her home. I didn't have the strength to talk, she just did it. She gave me a bj at the end and then got off me. I wasn't fully conscious but I indicated to her that I didn't really want it. I wanted to cry but no, I packed my things and went home. Im fcked up. I fcked it up. Pls dont take drugs and stay safe guys