Does anyone else struggle with this?

I’m in my early twenties and I often am unhappy/frustrated with my appearance. It’s been this way for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid and didn’t make decisions about how my hair looked or the clothes I wore this restlessness manifested itself in video game avatars. I could never settle on just one and would edit and re-edit avatars for hours- even to the point of getting upset over it. Even as a kid I had the inkling that this feeling could one day become about my real life appearance and just counted my lucky stars it would never happen. Well, it happened. Starting from when I was 15 and could start choosing my own haircuts and color the feeling of being unsatisfied with my appearance slowly ramped up until it involved all aspects of my appearance and some days I just outright hate how I look.

Let me be clear- I don’t think I’m ugly. In the sense of “being attractive” I think I am perfectly likable. But for whatever reason I’ve always felt that what I look like on the outside doesn’t reflect how I feel inside and this feeling sometimes makes me miserable and it feels really tough to escape sometimes. Sometimes I just hate how the clothes I wear look on me, sometimes I just straight up dislike my body. Sometimes I wish I were born a boy and sometimes I’m completely content in a woman’s body. It’s exhausting. I feel like I’m serving a customer who’s never satisfied.

These days I try to keep my hair natural and limit my clothing options so I have less to think about, but even then it still gets to me. I identify with gender fluidity and have thought maybe it’s sometime to do with that but, to be honest I just don’t know. I figured I’d throw these thoughts out there to see if there’s anyone else like me that feels something similar. If you do feel the same way, how do you cope? Does it ever get better?