Stay Strong!

Me and my ex girlfriend of 4.5 years broke up 4 months ago, but still remained in contact as if nothing had happened until last month. She gave me an ultimatum saying that she no longer wanted to talk to me and wished me luck on my future endeavors.

I was quite devastated about it, I poured everything that I was feeling up to that point. Once she sent the last message and didn’t reply, I gave up and respected the no contact as a way to respect myself and avoid making a fool out of myself.

I found out today that the reason why she cut me off so drastically was cause she was already seeing someone new. She gaslit me into believing it was my fault that she felt bad talking to me but in reality she was projecting her guilt. This only opened up the wound again and had me feeling mixed emotions where I wanted to confront her about it and essentially tell her “I know what you have done.”

I wanted to break no contact initially to question her about it, to know how long this has been going on and to know if she has been cheating on me with this guy, but it does me no difference other than just making the wound larger. No matter what her response is, there is nothing that I could do to change it. No amount of begging, talking, or actions will change her past actions or influence her to stop talking to the guy.

So to all people pushing through no contact, keep going. Do it to respect yourself. Direct all your anxious energy to improving yourself and becoming the best person you can be.

Lastly, she’s still on my Spotify family plan. I wanted to respectfully tell her that I was removing her but at this point I doubt it’s worth it, she might just get the good old boot lol.