I want to die

I'm mentally depressed, i feel ugly, my best friend left me, I have ocd, my country is fucked up, i am the loneliest i have ever felt.

I feel like I'm loosing my mind, i already lost mu teenage years and now im 21...im supposed to be having the best time of my life.

The only thing I know to do is neglect myself, compare myself and hate myself. I constantly have this vision in my brain of me cutting my veins.

I don't want to live. I'm tired of doing this, i don't want to be here anymore.

My parents keep telling me that if i kill myself they will kill themselves too..but im not longer living for myself, im leaving just to make sure they don't suffer while i suffer in silence.

Please god have mercy and kill me.