I’m insecure about my bodycount compared to my partners’

My (19f) bodycount is between 15-20 while all of my past boyfriends/fwb’s have been higher, and this is going to sound so stupid but it makes me feel inadequate. To me it’s like “look at all the people who wanted me vs the people who wanted you” and with my number being lower it’s like there’s mathematical proof that I’m less desirable than them and they’re “settling” for me as they could easily get anyone else as shown by their numbers. Yes I do tend to go for older men so they’ve had more time to have sexual experiences, but when you figure the math out it’s still makes me feel embarrassed.

I know this isn’t healthy, yes I have a therapist, but I’m too embarrassed to tell her because you’ve gotta admit, this is a new level of insecurity.