What is the weirdest thing you crave that you think is because of narcissistic trauma?

I'll start: a sofa. I dream of having a nice sofa I can just sit and relax on.

Growing up in a narcissistic dynamic of a family made me a "bedroom person". We have a living room but I didn't feel comfortable staying there because it made me feel too exposed to my Nmom's abuse. So I hid in my bedroom all day.

ETA: Hi everyone, thank you for sharing your time and experiences on this post. Although I couldn't reply to everything, I read all your comments (still reading the oncoming ones). We might have different yearnings, some unusual and some familiar, but we all want to have our peace of mind. And I hope we all find it someday. I hope you all find your own version of "a sofa". I'm grateful for this sub. Best wishes to you all!