I’m starting to like being a masculine woman

Some months ago i made a post here of how much i hated being a girl and how I wanted to transition. Well, im glad i listened to the fellow autists of this sub and didn’t go through with some decisions i would have potentially regretted. I’ve been working out more, deciphering some of the ideals about the feminine and the masculine and i came to the realization that it’s okay not to be a hyper feminine girl. I think coming from a traditional family has put a lot of expectations on me about what men and women should be doing, and that clashed with my own ideas and behaviors towards masculinity and femininity. I love being a masculine woman. I get to carry shit for my girlfriend, i get to dress like an artsy office twink, i have a deep ass voice, i like learning about cars and I’m dreaming of building my own cabin in the forest. In a way it makes me feel powerful. Now I’m not saying feminine women are weak, but they do seem to face some social and mental restrictions in some of their actions. They’re often very afraid to take the lead. Which sucks cus i love to come out on top. Anyways, I’m glad I didn’t transition. I’ve also struggled with PCOS and got the first hand experience of facial hair which convinced me that perhaps I was not meant to be a man.