Depressed on my Birthday

Birthdays are always sad for me in general I always get disappointed so I never try to get my hopes up. We recently moved in with my aunt this year and they were going to go on a trip to the Dells. After looking and the dates and cost we are unable to go. The one thing I was looking forward to for months. Then at my birthday party my aunt planned the whole thing out in front of me knowing I have been crying depressed about it for days. Knowing that my boyfriend had to work on the dates she moved it to the end of the week still knowing we couldn’t afford to go. I’m really disappointed because that is all I wanted was to have fun and go out with my family which we can never afford to do and have only done a few things in the past 7years I’ve been with my boyfriend. Also my grandma died this year and my birthday was also her birthday. My grandpa died a few years ago on my birthday. A family friend died years ago on my birthday and my other grandpa also molested me at 9years old on my birthday. So I’m very upset today and everyone just says get over it and have a good day well I doubt that will happen.