I woke up to a friend (with benefits) having sex with me and I just pretended to stay asleep. Now I feel weirded out.

Last night I was feeling really depressed and didn’t want to spend the night alone so I went to my friends place. He usually end up getting intimate, but I told him I didn’t want sex this time. The plan was just to watch a movie and cuddle a bit.

We got a few drink but I was really tried and I hadn’t really eat so I quickly got knocked out. I remember getting to bed and falling asleep really quickly.

Then I have no clue how long I slept, but I woke up to him undressing me. I was still pretty drunk and out of it so I just kept my eyes closed. At first nothing else happened so I eventually went back to sleep, but then I woke up again when he started touching me.

I have no clue why but I just didn’t move or do anything. I think I wanted to see how far he was gonna go. I was wondering if he could tell I was no longer sleeping but he didn’t say anything the whole time.

Now I just feel super weird. I don’t think it’s sexual assault because I was conscious and chose not to stop it. But from his perspective, I don’t understand what he was thinking. And I don’t understand why I just let it happen.

Anyway, I don’t know if this belongs here, but I wanted to let it out and I don’t have anyone to talk to.