I have a very toxic mindset because of beautystandards.

So, I broke up with my ex about 2 months ago because of mentalhealth issues that only got worse when we where togheter. And I want to improve and love myself again.

The best way to explain, I trully hate how I look, I hate that I dont look like most OF models or like the women in anime or cartoons. I hate how my body looks so much.

It doesnt matter if I work out or change how I look, I hate that I am not blonde, that I dont have blue eyes, that I dont have a skinnier waist, that I have so big thighs. I cry about it all the time and the pain never seems to go away.

My first ever boyfriend cheated on me and my current ex watched animes and followed women online that ruined me.

I want to love myself, but no matter how hard I try I always end up crying all truh the night because I hate myself so much.

Please help me, how do I accept my body and love myself?