Why is life so hard with depression…
Ok, so I have diagnosed depression (by a real therapist), and I am currently taking my medications. I started taking them like 5 years ago, and they have been working fine. Everything was going well until my parents started arguing really badly in December. From then on, everything just went downhill.. My mental health issues started getting worse, and I developed a lot of new health problems. One of the issues is that I just hit puberty a couple of months ago, which hasn’t helped. My parents started arguing, and now my father has temporarily moved away from us. They aren’t getting a divorce yet, but the situation is stressful..( School gives me a fuck ton of homework, and I am so tired of it. For the last two weeks, I’ve been feeling like shit all the time. I can’t just sit and focus, I do all of the homework assignments before the lesson, cuz I am really tired after school and literally can’t focus in homework. I have aggression, anxiety, and really bad mood swings all the time. Any little joke can make me extremely sad and stuff. Everyone is calling me the art kid and always tries to cheat and asks questions on algebra, but I can’t focus, so I either end up being really aggressive or just get a bad grade. My parents don’t really care about my grades but I still feel really guilty all the time… I can’t stand it anymore. A couple of days ago, I slammed my desk with my fist because of the homework, and my mom came in. She asked me if I needed help and whether I should go back to the therapist. The thing is, I’m really insecure about therapists. I don’t want to tell them all about my life, but I know I probably have to since it seems like my medication has stopped working. Recently, I’ve been feeling like I’m not even alive, like everything around me isn’t real and I’m just asleep. I don’t know, shit’s just hard, and I really hope everything gets better soon... I’ll post an update, on what the therapist said, in another post.
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Ok, so I have diagnosed depression (by a real therapist), and I am currently taking my medications. I started taking them like 5 years ago, and they have been working fine. Everything was going well until my parents started arguing really badly in December. From then on, everything just went downhill.. My mental health issues started getting worse, and I developed a lot of new health problems. One of the issues is that I just hit puberty a couple of months ago, which hasn’t helped. My parents started arguing, and now my father has temporarily moved away from us. They aren’t getting a divorce yet, but the situation is stressful..( School gives me a fuck ton of homework, and I am so tired of it. For the last two weeks, I’ve been feeling like shit all the time. I can’t just sit and focus, I do all of the homework assignments before the lesson, cuz I am really tired after school and literally can’t focus in homework. I have aggression, anxiety, and really bad mood swings all the time. Any little joke can make me extremely sad and stuff. Everyone is calling me the art kid and always tries to cheat and asks questions on algebra, but I can’t focus, so I either end up being really aggressive or just get a bad grade. My parents don’t really care about my grades but I still feel really guilty all the time… I can’t stand it anymore. A couple of days ago, I slammed my desk with my fist because of the homework, and my mom came in. She asked me if I needed help and whether I should go back to the therapist. The thing is, I’m really insecure about therapists. I don’t want to tell them all about my life, but I know I probably have to since it seems like my medication has stopped working. Recently, I’ve been feeling like I’m not even alive, like everything around me isn’t real and I’m just asleep. I don’t know, shit’s just hard, and I really hope everything gets better soon... I’ll post an update, on what the therapist said, in another post.
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