3 years sober and it’s miserable

I am a male in my mid-30s, I drank heavily since my early 20s. I am three years sober as of September 2024, and I gotta say it’s miserable. I have tried therapy, antidepressants, exercise all of it and I just don’t feel “alive.” Everything is just boring and exhausting. Social interactions are forced and never leave me feeling like wow that was fun. I just feel awkward and like I’m not having fun. I think the only joy I feel is at work. Family and home life is depressing and flat. I feel like drinking today and just saying fuck it.

Edit: I didn’t drink. I went for a run and talked to a bunch of people thank you all for the encouragement