Kratom

Please no hate for asking this as I know everyone has opinions but I’ve been out of subs for 5 days the withdrawals are UNBAREABLE almost worse than in active addiction. The pharmacy randomly called me out of the blue and said my prescription was ready after days of going back and forth between doctors and insurance. I took kratom not even 15 minutes before they called (wasn’t expecting it to be ready at all today) I know it is frowned upon but I can’t handle the withdrawals much longer before I go crazy. Would I be okay to take one of my subs?