Am I being gaslit by my tattoo artist???

Hi I got a retouch on my tattoo today, and listen, I understand the risks with finger tattoos but for my first retouch it's never blown out and it also never hurt to get the tattoo. When I got my retouch today, it hurt SO bad and she told me that she wasn't gonna go that deep into my skin so it wouldn't blow out but enough to keep it. BUT IT HURT SO BAD and i have pretty high pain tolerance/never felt tattoo pain.

What am I supposed to do it looks so FUGLY😭 I put pictures of when I first got it (literally disappeared like a week later), a photo of how it looked right before i got it retouched today, and how it looks now. I messaged her and this is what she said to me but i swear she just did a bad job. I don’t think it’s “normal” for finger tats to blow out if u do a decent job.

Also any advice to help it from blowing out more or how to minimize it please help!!!!