Need to vent, got some fucked news

So, I've been diagnosed with ADHD ever since I was in the third grade.

All fine.

But, today I went to a knew new psychiatrist, one who's more experienced. And it changed a lot of things.

For starters, my med dose hasn't been high enough so I know I can't fully blame myself for lower school grades. Two, got diagnosed with anxiety. Going to have start taking anyi depressants for like a year+, something I never thought I'd have to do. Don't know what side effects this'll bring, but I'm scared.

And probably worst of all, I show signs of my birth mother drinking when I was in her womb. For context I'm adopted, so I don't know who, but this sucks. I want to cry.

I didn't cry in there cuz I didn't wanna cry Infront of my parents, to not make them worry. But I feel so sunk right now.

I feel a void inside me that I fear may get worse, despite knowing the psychiatrist is here to help and despite being the first day we met, he was able to analyze me really well.

I don't need suggestions as it's all up to me, just felt like putting this out there. I won't tell this to any friends whatsoever, nor do I want to talk to my parents about this, because, and I know it's cliche, but my parents don't understand my situation, and if they do, and I try to explain it, I KNOW we will end up arguing.