Setting the New Boundaries

Since my last post, I decided to set new boundaries for MM and laying everything out about how I feel.

My thoughts are clearer when I write them down, but I intend to say this in person at our next meet up. If anyone could give me advice or thoughts on how I could improve this that would be great. I'm trying to convey that I don't want to be done but if nothing changes I have no other choice.

His biggest anxiety was setting and sticking to deadlines. So I kind of want to leave the wiggle room of "I need to feel like something has happened" rather than saying you have until xyz date.

I'm going to be honest, I was gearing up to tell you I didn't think I could do this anymore. But that isn't what I want. So, I looked at the things making me feel insecure and it's still all the same things.

You know my biggest issue has been time. How long everything takes and how I don't know when things are gonna happen. And I know you've been doing your best, but I'm gonna lay everything out on the line for you.

This is the last year I'm doing this.

If by the last quarter of the year I look around and nothing has changed I can't be supportive anymore.

I'm not trying to give you an ultimatum; I'm just letting you know where I'm at. This is what I need to see and hear from you to keep going:

<insert list of things I don't want to share on reddit lol>

I'm not trying to put pressure on you or give you a hard deadline. But every month that passes makes me less and less important. And if it gets to the end of the year and I feel stuck in this same place, it's going to have to be over. Not just the affair. Everything.

It would hurt, but we'd be done and no contact. And, honestly, I don't know how I'd feel about us in the future, even if you were diborced, if that happened.