Coming out

About to (maybe) about to come out to my mama today. I already basically outed myself to her and my dad because she read my journal last month, so she knows I at least like girls (she currently thinks I'm a lesbian, I'm pansexual/omnisexual). She keeps telling me she loves me, but I think it's just because she thinks I'm gonna kill myself if she reacts badly. My dad on the other hand couldn't give less of a fuck as long as I'm ok. He literally told me that he would teach me how to "pick up chicks" when he found out 💀. I'm so sick of everything happening in the world right now and people at school telling me I'm going to hell (I'm out as school, I go to a Catholic school) and saying I deserve to die, and a kid literally threatened to stab me with a butterfly knife. Her reaction couldn't be any worse and couldn't make me anymore upset and angry right now, so I might as well just get tit out of the way. Wish me luck 🤞

Update: I got scared, so now the plan is just to put up my trans flag (made with paper and markers) and wear my bracelets, and stuff like that and she can either ask about it or figure it out herself. I also plan on telling my counselor about it on Tuesday, so that might help a bit.